First post baby. I'm making this just to remember stuff tbh. Also to put my thoughts somewhere. Usually I have thoughts about stuff and make stuff about thoughts then my first thought is to put said stuff and thoughts in a place where I can share it. Which is usually on discord with the grove (i’ll talk about them at some point or more), on telegram with the dmz / scone (more more later blah blah) and on twitter with one of my accounts.
Tbh it got tiresome picking which one to go for since they’re all kinda easy to use in that sense, especially when accompanied by media. Often times I’ll usually only post these things there for discussion or potential interest from friends and such buuuuut there’s a lotta shit i think about that I wouldn’t feel entirely comfortable putting in any of those places.
Another thing is I used to only put stuff there for the sake of acknowledgement and interaction since I craved that kinda validation for a while. But nowadays it’s just an easy way to put down all my interests of the time to look back on. However them being reduced to the thoughts I felt were “palatable” to my peers reduced them to just that, and im kinda tired of it. I look back and remember some other things about them that I wish I’d said but just didn’t whether out of lack of confidence in my own thoughts or just lack of initiative to digest all the other shit i was thinking about it.
I honestly feel like i’m kinda rambling rn lol. Which is exactly why I’m putting all this in one consolidated place, all my interests, thoughts, creative projects, activities and other silly shit. More silly than shit but yeah. And I’m gonna type it out pretty much exactly the way i think about it, just to keep my thoughts flowing as I’d want them to be displayed. Badda bing badda boom. hehe.
I'm gonna try to make a habit of this in the future just so I have a place that I can call a journal. I've made many attempts to journal in one way or another. They were all awful. Writing in a physical journal was too tedious. Doing lil notes became kinda boring too. Taking videos of myself. That was a winner. I made this one video that was about an hour long, got pretty emotional too. Talked about my dad and shit. Anyways, why not combine all of the stuff that I scatter everywhere and put it here. Maybe then I'll learn not to repeat myself so much lol. Maybe it'll give me a good space to reflect on things. Maybe I'll grow a bit by doing this. Maybe it's maybelline. Zip zap zooey. Ay carumba.
Fuck Chris Brown.